So, why do you want to lose weight?

Lai manage to lose 11 kg so far, from 91kg to 80kg. The good point is, most of his jackets now fit well, some of them he even can barely put on a few months ago. Now all new trousers he just bought are far too big for him. So far, he lost about 4 inch on the waist. But the downside is, he also lost 2 inches on the chest, and he felt so small, flat compared to before, also he is happy his abs are now vaguely on show.




However, there are more downside than he expected. First, he noticed he is not as strong as before in the gym. Then, his gym buddy began to complain Lai's lift performance, how much his size shrunk etc etc... Lai did not care too much about his comments.

Then Lai met one of his old mate the other day for coffee.

"Jesus, you lost hell a lot weight!" His mate said.
"Not a lot, I still have another 5 kg to go" Lai answered.
"Why do you want to lose weight? I do not get it. You know, I thought you looked very good before"
"Really?"
"Yes, I really like that look, quite beefy, rugby type, you know I like butch guys"
"So what do you think now?" Lai asked.
"Well, all I can say is, please do not lose more, you will be too skinny at 75kg"
"Er... I guess you just can not be everyone's type..." Lai answered reluctantly.

Straight or Gay?

Lai come across a really strange guy recently. He contacted Lai a few times, eagerly expressed he want some private fun. He is called G, a typical English man with typical English looks. He is married with two kids. That is not abnormal, Lai has heard many gay men married with kids. Even in some cases, they may have wife and boyfriends at same time, while the wife and bf know each other.Lai already met quite a few of them.

However, G said he is straight, he just like to be fucked in bed., nothing else Lai know there are many kinky straight guys enjoy some strap on fun with their wives or girl friends. And there are many gay for pay in the porn business, as many big muscle straight guys make money by letting others use their arses, some may even prefer it, as being a bottom role is much easier compare to the performance the top has to give, as long as they can pass the initial barrier. However, Lai doubt these guys will enjoy doing it in their private lives, at least not with a man. If you want to sleep with a man, that make you gay, or at least bisexual, as simple as that.

Lai do not know how it started, but G just enjoy it, and he said his wife and even relatives knows about that. As he is very fond of oriental men, and would like to have kinda regular sex relationship, he had his eyes one Lai for quite a while.

Lai is a little curious, finally they set up a date, G showed up on time. A typical football top, very trunky strong build, nice smile, with a shining bald head. As you know, Lai always has something for bald guys, the baldness just made them so manly in a way. Lai found G very attractive.

G is quite talkative, seems really a fun guy to hung out. He seems come in a hurry as he was sweating a lot.

"You want to have a shower first?" Lai asked.

"no, sorry , I do not have much time..." G answered.

"Alright, that is fine by me."

"Oh, just one more thing, I do not kiss" G said. He jumped on the bed, face down, arse up, waiting...

Once he see that meaty arse,Lai know he could not wait any longer "No problem" he said, he jumped on.

G was very quiet in bed, very very passive.Lai turned him around and around for different positions, G just lay there let him control everything. How strange, he behaved like a totally different person minutes ago. Every time Lai stop, G turned around and gave him a blow job, which he is really good at it. Again and again,at last Lai feel a little exhausted .

"You just can not leave me alone for a minute".

"Hehe, sorry " G smiled. "You are so sexy".

He still did not want to leave it alone. "Do you want to cum inside my mouth?" G asked.

Lai was a little surprised, that did not sound like something a straight guy enjoy to do. However, Lai's brain did not work much at that time and he really can not hold any longer.

"Well, you want to do it again sometime?" G cleaned up and put his clothe on ASAP." I have some family business need to do, sorry about it...I want to meet more regularly, if it is ok for you? you know one day, you can cum inside me if we know each other better".

"err... alright, that sounds fun.." Lai lay there, motionless, "ok, just let yourself out..."

Finally, Lai started his cutting

As mentioned in the last post, Lai finally start his cutting, which in bodybuilding means reduce the body fat while maintain the muscle mass as more as possible. When you see those magazine with before and after pictures, those are normally from guys doing bulking and cutting, so do not believe what the magic bills they try to sell you.

Lai started at about 70kg, end up with 91kg. At first he want to go to 100kg, but no matter how hard he tried, it just did not work. Lai's best mate in the gym, Jason, who is slightly taller than Lai, bulked to 100kg in half year and cut to 75kg in very short time, the result made Lai mouth watering, and damn jealous. However, maybe Jason is only 20, full of grow hormone, Lai has to admit his disadvantage. Meanwhile, genetic reason is another excuse, as normally oriental guys seldom good at muscle building. Black guys normally has the best gene, you can often see black guys who never go to gym, hardy can lift 60kg dumbbells has great muscle definition. Of course there are exceptions, but general rules do hold.

There are two main reasons which made Lai hesitate for cutting. First is the achievement you may get from bulking. After years gym working without weight gain, once you can finally see some result on the scale. That kind of feeling will push you go further and further. Years ago, when Lai see a big guy in the gym with a slightly showing belly. He will immediately think,"eh, I don not want to be like that, that is just fat, do not understand why people want to be like that..." However, now is his turn, and he suddenly know how hard it is.

The second reason is, Lai worried if he cut hard, he will end up with not much left. For Jason, he built quite a big frame when bulking. That is why he looks so good once he shred the fat off and uncover the muscle beneath. However Lai worried, he is not big enough yet, esp his chest , the weakest part of him. He now got huge legs, arms, solid back, but the chest is still lacking... And unfortunately, pec seems the most important muscle for people to judge you, esp. for gay men, we all heard "no pecs, no sex".




Lai finally decided to start cutting is because his recent funny experience. On the night before his interview, he got out his suits, ties etc. He found none of them fit him, none of the trousers fit, some he barely can put his legs in. The biggest shirt he got can hardly contain his upper body. He can not move his arms properly, has to hold them in a awkward position. The funniest part is, even his neck seems grow a lot, as he can not button it to put on a tie. You can image how embrassed he was in the early morning interview the following day.

Once he decided, everything goes smoothly, the first week, from 91 to 88, the second week to 86. However, the weight reduce too fast may cause loose too much hard earned muscle, which is all he try to avoid. 3 weeks now, Lai 's waist size is down 1.5 inches, he is sure 2 months later, he will get his abs back, finger crossed he will still hold most the mass he want.

D

Last a few weeks Lai was busy preparing interviews, he did not eat and go to gym properly. When he went to gym last Friday, he noticed his weight dropped from 91kg to 86kg. Damn, that is so quick. Seems he has to start his cutting early :-(


Lai also noticed his sex drive is roof high. He decide to visit one of his mate,s D. D is a guy Lai met a few times. He got quite cute face and muscular body, working as marketing director of a big company. For Lai, D is really a strange combination, as there are so many contradiction s exist on this interesting guy.

D got the thickest dick Lai has ever seen, it is literally thick as a baby' arm, however he is extremely good at bottoming. Put this way, Lai is shy guy, even in bed, there is always something hold him back, however D belongs to those kinda guy who can drive Lai mad. D also got the best butt Lai has ever fucked, he got that kind perfect bubble butt, white, firm, with tan line. D is very masculine intelligent man, can hold decent conversation and discuss some heavy topics very well, but he is really slutty in bed, also sleep around quite a lot, based on Lai 's opinion.

If a guy can keep you coming back, again and again., there is definitely something you want from him. Lai does not know why, every now and then he has to call D, and stay with him for a night.




D lives in a very modern flat, there are full of oil paintings hanging on the wall, most full of nude male body, typically gay man. One of huge paintings in the main room, a half naked muscle man sitting on the beach, is the late boyfriend of D, who died from bowel cancer a few years ago. They were really beautiful couple, D showed Lai some pictures when they were on holidays, and believe or not, they were together for nearly 20 years. This really shocked Lai, he never think a "slut" like D can hold a monogamous relationship for such long time, thus you have to be open minded, never judge a book by his cover.

D told Lai he used to be a top, but because his bf has bowel cancer, he can not fuck him any more, thus he start to bottom and start to enjoy it. They must really love each other to do that, Lai think...

Lai went to D's place in last weekend. They had a few cups of wine, chatted a while then headed to the bed. Lai really missed that bubble butt, they did every possible position they can. D is as usual, moaning like a bitch and Lai keep talking dirty to him. Both of them are in their zone immediately, totally forget what is going on outside, just purely enjoy the physic pleasure they can offer to each other, fuck their brain out.

Suddenly Lai grab him, and turned D around, pushed his legs up in the air. "Let me see the pink hole" Lai was kinda surprised himself what he just said that, and he noticed D blushed immediately, even he is such a slut in bed.

However, Lai did not give him much time to think. He put D's legs down, twist his body and kept banging as hard as he can, soon he finished off... "Damn, one day i will cum inside you..." "oh yeah, that would be great.." D smiled and gave Lai a big kiss....

Dilemma

Lai started his job hunting recently, so far not much good news, and he trapped in dilemma. As he is not 20 any more, he has to consider more carefully about his career, instead just take a jobs for the sake of job. He got an offer from a very famous company, fit his interest very well, and sure will have good career future. However, he has to move to Belfast! Lai hesitated, as he really does not want to move out of London. It is not because how much he enjoying London, the main reason is, he think London is possibly the best place for him to meet similar gay people. Of course there must be gay life going on in other cities, but for someone like Lai, it is going to even tougher.

If nothing suitable can float on his boat soon, Lai plan to stay at home for a few months, study something he is interested, train harder in the gym, and have a little break. He really does not want to rush to a job he will not enjoy.




Good news in gym though, great progress on all main compound, even with his sweater on, his female colleague begin to complain he is getting bigger and bigger each day,"Please lose some weight" she said, LOL.

The Brazilian guy msg him almost every other day. He visited Lai last night and they had great fun in the shower....

Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day

This Year Chinese New Year is the same day as Valentine' Day. To avoid being alone on this special day, Lai decided to go to his Chinese friends' party. It was a fun party, but Lai felt a little uncomfortable, as his friends do not understand why he is still single, thus they tried their best to introduce him some nice girls. Although Lai used to think he might be bisexual, now he certainly more interested in men. However, he can not explain this to his warm hearted friends....

Lai met a Brazilian guy recently , R. R is a student who study English, in London. He was a journalist in his country, and work as an intern in a very famous media company in UK. R has the typical Brazilian look, dark skin, huge chest, and nice bubble butt. Brazilian guys are extremely popular in gay society, maybe because their blood mix with gene from every corner of the world, no wonder why they look so sexy.


R contacted Lai months ago from a website, they exchanged numbers, msg but never managed to make a date. On Sunday afternoon, when Lai was meeting some friends in Soho, R texted him, "Can i come tonight?" Lai hesitated a while and agreed. When R showed at his door, Lai was surprised how great R looks, those pictures do not do his justice. Normally Lai does not like young guys, as he think man should look like man instead of boys. However, Lai found this young and cute face extremely attractive.

R took off most of his clothes once he entered the door, only left a vest and short on. When Lai back from kitchen with a glass of water in hand, he was a little shocked by R. He did not expect R will strip so quick, normally he want some chit chat first. Looking at that sexy body, Lai's mouth is drooling, "So should we move to the bed then?" R is not shy at all, he jumped on the bed, totally naked, kinda show off and invite Lai to join...

R seems really enjoy the sex, he moaned a little like a girl in bed, Lai was amused a masculine man can make such kind of sounds, LOL

"Can you cuddle me for a while?" R asked after they finished. Lai kissed and cuddled him from behind, they shared a nice nap.

New Year's Resolutions

So 2010 is here, what do you want for the new year? Most of people have new year's resolution,s but very rare we can achieve them. However, this does not stop us having a little bit dream.

For Lai, he hopes he can find a nice new job, as he think a successful career is very important for man, that can bring satisfaction and confidence to a man, thus make him very attractive and sexy in a way. As Lai is not young any more , he began to feel the pressure of it. Please wish him good luck for job hunting.

Lai also hopes he can be more organized, live and work more efficient than he was in 2009. Do not waste too much time on nonsense, such as gay porn, LOL.

Lai wish he can call his parents more often, and send more money to them, that is possible only way he can do to make him less guilty. Lai also hopes he can be more strict with himself, but more kind to others.


Not much other news except Aussie got a bf now. Aussie did not mention that, but Lai overheard from one of their mutual friends. Although Lai never think Aussie as a bf material , he did feel a little sad at the news, no idea why... Maybe he gonna miss all the fun with Aussie.