New Year's Resolutions

So 2010 is here, what do you want for the new year? Most of people have new year's resolution,s but very rare we can achieve them. However, this does not stop us having a little bit dream.

For Lai, he hopes he can find a nice new job, as he think a successful career is very important for man, that can bring satisfaction and confidence to a man, thus make him very attractive and sexy in a way. As Lai is not young any more , he began to feel the pressure of it. Please wish him good luck for job hunting.

Lai also hopes he can be more organized, live and work more efficient than he was in 2009. Do not waste too much time on nonsense, such as gay porn, LOL.

Lai wish he can call his parents more often, and send more money to them, that is possible only way he can do to make him less guilty. Lai also hopes he can be more strict with himself, but more kind to others.


Not much other news except Aussie got a bf now. Aussie did not mention that, but Lai overheard from one of their mutual friends. Although Lai never think Aussie as a bf material , he did feel a little sad at the news, no idea why... Maybe he gonna miss all the fun with Aussie.

Merry Xmas Everyone

so 2009 is gone, isn't it fast? Last Xmas, Lai was desperate searching for accommodation for his new job, he travelled to London, used only one day for house hunting before he hurried back to China to visit his parents. It looks like yesterday, times really flies...

Looking back, not much achievement this year. Workwise, some progress, but a lot need to improve, gonna hunt for a new jobs after new year. Gymwise, tiny progress, bench and squat still same, very disappointing, deadlift up 20kg. gonna push harder next year.

Still no boyfriend, do not know whether he exists in this world or not. However, Lai did meet some nice people, both online and offline, hopefully next year Lai will have more gay friends.

Aussie invited Lai for his Xmas party, however, Lai is very unorganised person, he mixed up the date in his schedule, so he missed it! You can imagine how disappointed Aussie was. Lai and Aussie become quite good friends now, but it kinda feel weird, you would not shag your good friend, will you?


A married couple invited Lai to visit them on New year. And another old friend of Lai asked him to do some charity work, Lai agreed. Even though Lai can not understand why people become homeless in this country. As he always tell his British friends, in China, even you do not have hands, no legs, you still have to work! people do not complain about it, you need to support yourself. Lai do not know why these young healthy men can not take care of themselves, maybe they just need to be slapped and sent to some poorest area in the earth for a while, then they will not take things for granted.

Lai signed up for one week night shift in the center, as his friends told him they are really short of volunteers in the night. Lai has to travel one and half hour to there, and start work from 10pm to 9am every night. To his surprise, although some guests there do seems abusive or having mental problem, many of them are very polite and can hold some decent conversation...

Lai has not never drunk so much coffee in his life, normally he seldom drink coffee, but in order keep himself awake, in the first night he drunk at least 8 cups of strong black coffee, and he only managed less than 2 hours sleep once he back home, then go back to the center to start another shift...

By day 3, Lai is exhausted, he really admire some other members who has worked there for years, he even met an old lady who drove from Yorkshire to London during Xmas to help these homeless people. Lai think, our lacking of sleep may exchange one week nice warm sleep for these poor people, esp in this time of year, maybe it does worth.

It is a fun job, you can meet all kinds people, both guest and volunteers... But Lai was thinking, "can i just have one night break? i already have running nose and headache now..." However, he still insists..

so how was your Xmas? Hope you had a nice and happy one!

Hustler

Recent a few weeks, Lai got big headache from a hustler, if he could describe the guy this way. Back two months ago, Lai got msg from him on a website. He looks like pretty decent guy. On his profile, there is no face pic, only a naked man lying facing towards the wall, a perfect muscle back and bubble arse fully exposed. "mmm, very nice " Lai think...


They tried to set a date for meet, but the first time Lai was too busy, then this guy was in France to take care of his business. So they exchanged some msg occasionally flirting. At first, he behaved like a normal guy, soon Lai got some more picture from him. Although Lai did not like his face, but he has to admit, this guy got a very nice body, and seems to be a very eager bottom, which made Lai quite excited. Lai did notice something different from the backgrounds of those pictures, the guy seems come from very wealthy family, and this was soon proved by their conversation later. However, Lai is normally quite put off by people boasting their richness, esp, it is just for a casual shag. Soon, Lai noticed something strange. During the a few weeks this guy was in France, he texted Lai every night, began with flirting, then .. his full address, his drink list...Normally, ppl will not do this.

To be polite, Lai answered a few first, then he got msg, such as "Are you watching TV now? On BBC2, there is a documentary about xxxx, he is my friend, just live down the street, do you want to....." After a few "ok", "cool", Lai really lost interests to answer.

However, things getting worse day by day, he began to text and call Lai more frequently. Even after Lai decided to ingore him. Every day, at least 10 txts from him, many even at 3am in the moring.. and the content starts as "want to fuck me now?" changed to "come on", then some incomplete meaningless words. Lai thought most guys will get the idea after a few days if you do not respond him. However, this guy keep doing this for nearly two months now, every day, every morning..

Lai has a bad habit, he always forgetting his mobile at home, thus he has to check his mobile once he back home after work. Many of his friends had complained about this. But this time, this bad habit helped Lai a lot. He set his mobile in vibration mode, and try to forget it.

Now Lai seriously think to delete his profile on that site and change his mobile number ...

Apple Tree

----------------- Men-----------------------
-----------are like apples------------------
-------on trees. The best ones------------
-----are at the top of the tree-------------
-----Other men don't want to reach-----
----for the good ones because they------
-are afraid of falling & getting hurt------
-Instead, they get the rotten apples------
-from the ground that aren't as nice-----
-but easy. So the apples up top think----
--there is something wrong with them--
---when in reality they're amazing-------
---They just have to wait for the----------
-------right man to come along-----------
--------the one who is brave--------------
----------enough to climb-----------------
----------------all the----------------------
---------------way to----------------------
---------------the top---------------------




















我们都是远视眼，模糊了离我们最近的幸福

Busy Busy

Lai is so busy recently, he somehow took two jobs at same time, thus he found ife become kinda chaos, as he is not very organized person. Hopefully after Xmas things can get better.

He has to refuse some hot guys, as he really struggle to find time for his sexual pleasure. Last week he managed to meet Aussie, they had dinner together, and aussie invited him for his Xmas party.

A very hot muscluar Brazilian guy want to meet Lai, he called a few times, but because his busy schedule, Lai has to postpone it again and again.

Lai went to some famous gay club with some friends last weekend, it is never his cup of tea, as it is too noise and packed, but it is kinda fun experience. And most interesting thing is, on the night bus back home, a tall hunky Slovakia guy want to chat him up. And he was with a girl, not sure she is his girlfriend or not. As he sent her to sit at back of bus and sit besides Lai..... If Lai did not have any plan the following morning, he would not mind coming home with the hunk, as he is so Delicious. "So, do not you want to go to eat something together?" he asked. Lai smiled, "maybe next time..."

One more interesting thing happened is, occasionally he got msg from some guys who is into SM. Sometimes Lai was quite turned on by having a personal slave, as it going to kinda fun. However, he never think it seriously. But recently someone seems really keen to be his personal slave. Hahaha, Lai think, i can ask him to clean my flat then, that is great...

Problems of casual sex

As mentioned in last post, when gay men want sex, they normally want it immediately, if you responded the following day, normally they would ignore you. However, Lai like to make appointment first. He noticed these also cause a lot of problems. E.g. Last week, he has 6 guys lined up for sex. He knows some of them will not be bothered at the appointed time, as people do not give a damn about the sex date which they set online one week ago. But when things really happened, Lai does feel a little down. As normally if he is the one travelling, he always make the effort to keep his words.


E.g. A handsome muscle American guy msg Lai a few times, they soon set the date. But he did not show up and not respond to Lai's msg any more, no idea he is already back to US or whatever reason. "what a shame" thinking about that beautiful butt he missed, Lai is a little sad.
A tall muscle bottom was also very keen to meet, they flirted a lot and he want to come immediately, but Lai set a date next week. However, when the guy found out he has to travel one hour on the tube, he can not be bothered, at least he told Lai for advance.

At least some of his sex date shown up. One cute hairy British guy is actually very polite, he apologized for being late for 3 minutes. Once they sit down, Lai noticed there is another problem for this kinda casual sex. Generally Lai is a shy guy, even when he is the one who accommodate, he found it is awkward to jump straight to bed. Thus he normally prefer to chat with the guy for a while. However, once the chat is started, it goes on and on, it is just strange to change the topic back and get undressed. Gay Banker once mentioned he normally take his top off within 5 minutes once entering the room. This is a practical suggestion,but Lai just feel difficult to do it.

The British guy is a very good kisser, he sucked Lai' tongue so hard, will not let it go. He got very nice cheeky smile and hairy body, at little bit too hairy for Lai's taste. So in the middle of fucking, Lai lost his hard on. The guy is very cooperative, he change to every possible position try to get Lai's attention. They watched some porn and then Lai finished him in doggy, and shot on his back.

Another problem of this kinda casual sex is, you never know what kinda guy you will get. He might not look like his picture, then you may sent him straight home. But even he looks like his picture, once things start, there are something will bother you. E.g. Another guy Lai met, on his profile, he is very handsome, dressed as kinda CEO type. But once he showed up, Lai notice he is very shy, as he said he normally did not do casual sex. What turned Lai off is, the guy smoke, when they kissing, yuck, Lai has to avoid it.

A very good looking tall Polish guy msg Lai at night. They chatted on msn for a while, he let Lai watch him on cam. This is a very handsome hunky guy, like a male model, no wonder he sounds very cocky. His English is not good, even worse than Lai. But they can communicate well. The guy thought Lai is bottom at first, keep showing off his 9 inch dick. However Lai is not interested at all. Somehow Lai manage to talk him into the mood. Finally he said "I seldom bottom. But if you come now, you can fuck me". As it is already 11pm, although they live quite close, Lai refused. "How about Sunday ?" They set the time, but Lai did not know whether he will show up or not.

why gay men are so desperate?

This week Lai try to go back to the gym. He found he lost quite a bit strength due to the obvious reason. He updated his training routine, hope he can back on track soon.

Last Thursday Lai forgot to log off the website, the following morning he got more than ten msg asking for sex, mostly received around 2am to 6am, some was sent out from pretty hot guys. While Lai sent"sorry not at PC that moment", he does not understand why gay men are so desperate, when they want sex, they want it now, ASAP. As he know, these guys possibly will never answer his msg.

Friday night he got msg from one hot guy, his id made Lai laugh, called something like hung as horse :-) The profile said he is versatile, but looking for a hung top. Although Lai shagged quite a few guys with big dick, he does feel intimidated when someone keep emphasizing how hung he is, normally he will just ignore the guy no matter how hot he is.

The msg goes like...

"Sorry mate, thanks for the msg, but i think you should go for a black guy"
"I do not care the size, i know you must be very hard, i like hard dick, i bet you like to fuck a hung bottom, seeing my big dick bouncing on your stomach"
""mmm, that sounds hot, but kinda late now, maybe in the weekend if you are free"
"no, please, now, i want you inside me now... I live very close to the tube station"
"It is nearly 9 now, you need to give me notice for advance."
"PLS, i am dying for it, this is my number...."

Finally, Lai agreed. Luckily the address is only 3 stops away. Soon Lai arrived, the tall guy opened the door, in a bath robe. Once Lai got in, he loose the bath rob, "So how do you think?"
"Very nice" Lai smiled, he was kinda surprised, the guy actually is quite cute, and got very nice body..

Soon they were busy in bed, Lai know he met a very eager bottom, willing to do everything to please the top. "Man, you are good...." The guy shouted with joy. Lai really like to dominate a guy who is taller than him in bed, esp. a really good one.

Then they cuddled for a while. "Do you mind i stay here tonight? It is kinda late now"
"No, not at all" The guy gave him a kiss and asked" You do not fancy me i think"
"Why?"
"You did me doggy mostly..."
Lai was puzzled. Where does that come from? "How about I rape you late, I will do you on your back more this time, will that make up for it?" Lai asked. The guy smiled...

LOL, "very nice guy, just a little bit slutty.. "Lai think..