Dilemma

Lai started his job hunting recently, so far not much good news, and he trapped in dilemma. As he is not 20 any more, he has to consider more carefully about his career, instead just take a jobs for the sake of job. He got an offer from a very famous company, fit his interest very well, and sure will have good career future. However, he has to move to Belfast! Lai hesitated, as he really does not want to move out of London. It is not because how much he enjoying London, the main reason is, he think London is possibly the best place for him to meet similar gay people. Of course there must be gay life going on in other cities, but for someone like Lai, it is going to even tougher.

If nothing suitable can float on his boat soon, Lai plan to stay at home for a few months, study something he is interested, train harder in the gym, and have a little break. He really does not want to rush to a job he will not enjoy.




Good news in gym though, great progress on all main compound, even with his sweater on, his female colleague begin to complain he is getting bigger and bigger each day,"Please lose some weight" she said, LOL.

The Brazilian guy msg him almost every other day. He visited Lai last night and they had great fun in the shower....

Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day

This Year Chinese New Year is the same day as Valentine' Day. To avoid being alone on this special day, Lai decided to go to his Chinese friends' party. It was a fun party, but Lai felt a little uncomfortable, as his friends do not understand why he is still single, thus they tried their best to introduce him some nice girls. Although Lai used to think he might be bisexual, now he certainly more interested in men. However, he can not explain this to his warm hearted friends....

Lai met a Brazilian guy recently , R. R is a student who study English, in London. He was a journalist in his country, and work as an intern in a very famous media company in UK. R has the typical Brazilian look, dark skin, huge chest, and nice bubble butt. Brazilian guys are extremely popular in gay society, maybe because their blood mix with gene from every corner of the world, no wonder why they look so sexy.


R contacted Lai months ago from a website, they exchanged numbers, msg but never managed to make a date. On Sunday afternoon, when Lai was meeting some friends in Soho, R texted him, "Can i come tonight?" Lai hesitated a while and agreed. When R showed at his door, Lai was surprised how great R looks, those pictures do not do his justice. Normally Lai does not like young guys, as he think man should look like man instead of boys. However, Lai found this young and cute face extremely attractive.

R took off most of his clothes once he entered the door, only left a vest and short on. When Lai back from kitchen with a glass of water in hand, he was a little shocked by R. He did not expect R will strip so quick, normally he want some chit chat first. Looking at that sexy body, Lai's mouth is drooling, "So should we move to the bed then?" R is not shy at all, he jumped on the bed, totally naked, kinda show off and invite Lai to join...

R seems really enjoy the sex, he moaned a little like a girl in bed, Lai was amused a masculine man can make such kind of sounds, LOL

"Can you cuddle me for a while?" R asked after they finished. Lai kissed and cuddled him from behind, they shared a nice nap.

New Year's Resolutions

So 2010 is here, what do you want for the new year? Most of people have new year's resolution,s but very rare we can achieve them. However, this does not stop us having a little bit dream.

For Lai, he hopes he can find a nice new job, as he think a successful career is very important for man, that can bring satisfaction and confidence to a man, thus make him very attractive and sexy in a way. As Lai is not young any more , he began to feel the pressure of it. Please wish him good luck for job hunting.

Lai also hopes he can be more organized, live and work more efficient than he was in 2009. Do not waste too much time on nonsense, such as gay porn, LOL.

Lai wish he can call his parents more often, and send more money to them, that is possible only way he can do to make him less guilty. Lai also hopes he can be more strict with himself, but more kind to others.


Not much other news except Aussie got a bf now. Aussie did not mention that, but Lai overheard from one of their mutual friends. Although Lai never think Aussie as a bf material , he did feel a little sad at the news, no idea why... Maybe he gonna miss all the fun with Aussie.

Merry Xmas Everyone

so 2009 is gone, isn't it fast? Last Xmas, Lai was desperate searching for accommodation for his new job, he travelled to London, used only one day for house hunting before he hurried back to China to visit his parents. It looks like yesterday, times really flies...

Looking back, not much achievement this year. Workwise, some progress, but a lot need to improve, gonna hunt for a new jobs after new year. Gymwise, tiny progress, bench and squat still same, very disappointing, deadlift up 20kg. gonna push harder next year.

Still no boyfriend, do not know whether he exists in this world or not. However, Lai did meet some nice people, both online and offline, hopefully next year Lai will have more gay friends.

Aussie invited Lai for his Xmas party, however, Lai is very unorganised person, he mixed up the date in his schedule, so he missed it! You can imagine how disappointed Aussie was. Lai and Aussie become quite good friends now, but it kinda feel weird, you would not shag your good friend, will you?


A married couple invited Lai to visit them on New year. And another old friend of Lai asked him to do some charity work, Lai agreed. Even though Lai can not understand why people become homeless in this country. As he always tell his British friends, in China, even you do not have hands, no legs, you still have to work! people do not complain about it, you need to support yourself. Lai do not know why these young healthy men can not take care of themselves, maybe they just need to be slapped and sent to some poorest area in the earth for a while, then they will not take things for granted.

Lai signed up for one week night shift in the center, as his friends told him they are really short of volunteers in the night. Lai has to travel one and half hour to there, and start work from 10pm to 9am every night. To his surprise, although some guests there do seems abusive or having mental problem, many of them are very polite and can hold some decent conversation...

Lai has not never drunk so much coffee in his life, normally he seldom drink coffee, but in order keep himself awake, in the first night he drunk at least 8 cups of strong black coffee, and he only managed less than 2 hours sleep once he back home, then go back to the center to start another shift...

By day 3, Lai is exhausted, he really admire some other members who has worked there for years, he even met an old lady who drove from Yorkshire to London during Xmas to help these homeless people. Lai think, our lacking of sleep may exchange one week nice warm sleep for these poor people, esp in this time of year, maybe it does worth.

It is a fun job, you can meet all kinds people, both guest and volunteers... But Lai was thinking, "can i just have one night break? i already have running nose and headache now..." However, he still insists..

so how was your Xmas? Hope you had a nice and happy one!

Hustler

Recent a few weeks, Lai got big headache from a hustler, if he could describe the guy this way. Back two months ago, Lai got msg from him on a website. He looks like pretty decent guy. On his profile, there is no face pic, only a naked man lying facing towards the wall, a perfect muscle back and bubble arse fully exposed. "mmm, very nice " Lai think...


They tried to set a date for meet, but the first time Lai was too busy, then this guy was in France to take care of his business. So they exchanged some msg occasionally flirting. At first, he behaved like a normal guy, soon Lai got some more picture from him. Although Lai did not like his face, but he has to admit, this guy got a very nice body, and seems to be a very eager bottom, which made Lai quite excited. Lai did notice something different from the backgrounds of those pictures, the guy seems come from very wealthy family, and this was soon proved by their conversation later. However, Lai is normally quite put off by people boasting their richness, esp, it is just for a casual shag. Soon, Lai noticed something strange. During the a few weeks this guy was in France, he texted Lai every night, began with flirting, then .. his full address, his drink list...Normally, ppl will not do this.

To be polite, Lai answered a few first, then he got msg, such as "Are you watching TV now? On BBC2, there is a documentary about xxxx, he is my friend, just live down the street, do you want to....." After a few "ok", "cool", Lai really lost interests to answer.

However, things getting worse day by day, he began to text and call Lai more frequently. Even after Lai decided to ingore him. Every day, at least 10 txts from him, many even at 3am in the moring.. and the content starts as "want to fuck me now?" changed to "come on", then some incomplete meaningless words. Lai thought most guys will get the idea after a few days if you do not respond him. However, this guy keep doing this for nearly two months now, every day, every morning..

Lai has a bad habit, he always forgetting his mobile at home, thus he has to check his mobile once he back home after work. Many of his friends had complained about this. But this time, this bad habit helped Lai a lot. He set his mobile in vibration mode, and try to forget it.

Now Lai seriously think to delete his profile on that site and change his mobile number ...

Apple Tree

----------------- Men-----------------------
-----------are like apples------------------
-------on trees. The best ones------------
-----are at the top of the tree-------------
-----Other men don't want to reach-----
----for the good ones because they------
-are afraid of falling & getting hurt------
-Instead, they get the rotten apples------
-from the ground that aren't as nice-----
-but easy. So the apples up top think----
--there is something wrong with them--
---when in reality they're amazing-------
---They just have to wait for the----------
-------right man to come along-----------
--------the one who is brave--------------
----------enough to climb-----------------
----------------all the----------------------
---------------way to----------------------
---------------the top---------------------




















我们都是远视眼，模糊了离我们最近的幸福

Busy Busy

Lai is so busy recently, he somehow took two jobs at same time, thus he found ife become kinda chaos, as he is not very organized person. Hopefully after Xmas things can get better.

He has to refuse some hot guys, as he really struggle to find time for his sexual pleasure. Last week he managed to meet Aussie, they had dinner together, and aussie invited him for his Xmas party.

A very hot muscluar Brazilian guy want to meet Lai, he called a few times, but because his busy schedule, Lai has to postpone it again and again.

Lai went to some famous gay club with some friends last weekend, it is never his cup of tea, as it is too noise and packed, but it is kinda fun experience. And most interesting thing is, on the night bus back home, a tall hunky Slovakia guy want to chat him up. And he was with a girl, not sure she is his girlfriend or not. As he sent her to sit at back of bus and sit besides Lai..... If Lai did not have any plan the following morning, he would not mind coming home with the hunk, as he is so Delicious. "So, do not you want to go to eat something together?" he asked. Lai smiled, "maybe next time..."

One more interesting thing happened is, occasionally he got msg from some guys who is into SM. Sometimes Lai was quite turned on by having a personal slave, as it going to kinda fun. However, he never think it seriously. But recently someone seems really keen to be his personal slave. Hahaha, Lai think, i can ask him to clean my flat then, that is great...