Thinking about Coming Out

Lai is thinking about coming out to his parent, as English is not his native Lanuage. He struggle to express himself, but he tried his best.

Dear mum,

The traditional Chinese Mid-Autumn Festival is coming, Like ancient Chinese poem said, “For the lonely stranger in a strange land, It is on the festival occasions when I miss my dear most.” However, this festival is the important of the important. It is Mid-Autumn Festival!

I know the red lanterns will be hung everywhere on the street, I know every family member will try to back home for reunion, I know there will be a big dinner party, I know you will be eating lunar cake while enjoying the beauty of the bright silver moon. I know you will cut a slice of the cake in advance, leave it for me. I know no matter where I am, how old I am, you are always worrying about me.

People say the round lunar cakes symbolise the best wishes for family reunion. When there is a slice missing, it is not round any more. People say when there is a family member away, the bright silver moon is not full and bright as before.

Raising my head, I see the moon so bright, same as I can remember since as a child. But this time I am all alone. Who will help you to light the lanterns this year, and who will go to see the dragon dance with you? I wish that moon of hometown is dear and bright. I wish I could eat my favourite dish you cooked once more, I wish you know my heart, will always be there with you.

Mum, I still remember the poem you taught me when I was only 5.

“The thread in the hands of a fond-hearted mother

Makes clothes for the body of her wayward boy;

Carefully she sews and thoroughly she mends,

Dreading the delays that will keep him late from home.”

People say” You should never travel long journey when your parents still alive". However, as your undutiful son, not only I travelled far, but I could not go back to you. You always ask me why , why?

Every time, I try to pick up the coverage to tell you the truth, but I know your age is not lived but survived, your are pining away ,I could not, I could not confront your eyes with expectation, how could I do this? How could I bear to hurt you more?

Mum, I wish I could bring my beautiful Japanese GF to visit you, I wish I could give you sunny smile by a new born grandson, I wish, I wish I could live next to you and take care of you forever, but… I could not.

Mum,I do not want to lie to you any more, I do not want to live double life any more. Every single day I was tortured by the same question. Mum, this is something out of my control, hope you can understand it…..

Mum, please forgive me!

Busy Week

Lai has not wanked for nearly a week, this is very rare for him, as he has quite high sex drive. He just want to see how long can he go for it. But things become tough, he felt he was going to burst. He can not concentrate on his work. When he stare at his laptop in the office, all his brain can think about is Aussie's man pussy. Lai even noticed he began to peek his female colleagues' bra when they were busy discussing. As Lai is always a gentleman, this idea made him blush. We all know straight guys may have sex with each other when they are in some circumstance, such as army and sea men. So will gay men become too desperate for sex and shag women?? Finally Friday comes, he can not wait for another minute. He met Aussie for dinner that night, they were busy flirting, even in public, some touching under the tables all made it great fun. Not mention the great pleasure Aussie offered Lai later.

Saturday Lai met a guy originally comes from mid east, V. V is a fun guy, who worked as an artist. They chatted for a while online. Lai always asking guys "What kinda date do you prefer, coffee, dinner or straight to bed?" Most guys will say coffee first. Occasionally there are someones prefer dinner. V was the only one so direct to ask for straight to bed. When Lai called him a slut about that. He answered. "I fancy you, i promise coffee and dinner later". They met near V's flat, which is extremely close to the most famous gallery in London. The place is clean, but the host seems does not live there often. V did tell Lai later that he travelled a lot.

There is not much talking, once Lai sit down, asked for some water. V's mouth was on Lai's downstairs. His tongue is so skillful. Lai's brain began to stop working, he can see people walking along the river bank from the big glass window. Meanwhile, he was enjoying the great sensation. "man... you are so good", Lai stroked V's head, his another hand reached out for V's arse.

V is a tall well-built man, he speaks in a very deep voice, although he said he moved to London nearly 20 years ago, he still has an interesting accent. V stood up, held Lai's hand and led him to the bedroom on the other side of flat. To Lai's surprise, V's arse is very very tight, Lai did not expect that at first. They struggled a little bit to get things going.

V's face was soon written full of pain.His mouth was widely opened, keep gasping for air. "easy... easy... slow" he begged. V has quite strong legs. Lai has to make some effort to hold those big meaty legs. He stop and changed to another position once he noticed V was really high, as he knows guys like that will not let you fuck them once they cum. Soon V asked to stop, "I can not take it any more, let me rest for a while". Lai did. But once it stared again. V asked for stop another time. "Please cuddle me for a while.." Then V want to ride. He sit on top of Lai and began moaning....

"Hey, you can not sit like that, i can not move at all" Lai complained, "Yes, but that is the point, i can enjoy the pleasure without the pain". "You selfish bastard" Lai joked. "I am not the selfish one, you are! i already nearly cum twice, you keep changing positions to stop it, now it is my turn to have some fun". Lai pushed him down try to attack again.. Soon V had enough," I am serious now, man, i can not take any more, not even for money. you gonna cum now or you have to wait for next time". Lai was disappointed, left with erection :-(

Sunday Lai met a cute Italian guy. who seems a really nice bloke and not into one night stands. "mmm, nice wife material.." Lai think. When they met at the tube station, Lai's was immediately blushed. He try to cover it, hope the Italian guy did not notice that. The guy was very handsome and masculine, although Lai did see his pictures before they met, but Lai did not expect that he looks that nice. They went to have some beer. Lai become a little nervous, he can not look the guy straigh in his eyes. He seem really nice guy, a little younger than Lai, but very mature and career focus, Lai is really impressed. At last, they said goodbye at the tube station."so, hope to see you again sometime" The Italian guy said."Sure" Lai answered,and gave a little spank on his bubble butt.

Lai got two funny messages recently. One for a porn audition. Another interview invitation from a famous gay escort agency. LOL, life is full of fun.

AussieBum

Lai never dated any Aussie before, but he always fancy a little bit aussiebum. Lai does know one Aussie who he chatted nearly two years. Aussie has an OK looking face, he got that kinda body which Lai is always jealous about. He is tall, about 6 feet 2. Normally tall guys , although they can be beefy, some may look slender, others may look too chunky. However, aussie has the perfect long legs, huge pecs, strong wide shoulder but a tiny little waist. Everything is so beautifully proportioned. As Lai is short, he know he will never has a body like that, no matter how hard he worked.

Aussie is in his early 40s, work as a senior manager of a big telecommunication company. He got a Japanese BF before, that is why he began to be attracted to oriental guys. When first time Lai received those pictures from aussie, he was really impressed by aussie's beautiful bubble butt. Lai can not believe a guy like aussie enjoy being topped in bed.

Gradually they become friends, chat all kinds topic and flirt to each other. Aussie used to married to a woman, and really enjoy sex with girls. Then he began to fuck guys, when he get older and older, he tend to be more passive. Aussie said partly it is because of his job. As in his work, everybody listen to him, he controls everything, but he is really stressed and tired of it, thus in bed, he like someone else to take the control, to dominate him.

Finally last week they manage to meet up. Aussie chose to have the date in a gym at central London. Lai was a little surprised, but he think that is a cool idea, maybe he can learn something training tips from aussie.

They recognized each other immediately and talked like old mates, aussie guided Lai to the gym he normally visits in weekends. It is a nice gym, much bigger than the one Lai goes. Not so many people though, maybe because it is near lunch time, and it is a Sunday. They trained chest and back that day. To Lai's surprise, aussie seems can not lift much. As he is much taller and heavier than Lai, he suppose to lift much more. However, Lai noticed aussie even struggle with some weight Lai is comfortable about. How can he get a body like that then? He must have taken something", Lai think, although aussie denied.

They heading to the shower after the workout, it is a communal shower room, so aussie was busy checking Lai 's body. However, for Lai, aussie's body is ... a little bit intimidating, his pec is so huge, those abs is so clear like someone cut it with a knife. Standing so close to a huge body like that, Lai really felt small. Especially when he noticed aussie's downstairs. "Damn", Lai think," i hope i got a body like that. Life is so unfair.."

Then they went to aussie's place, it is a small and tidy flat, Lai does not understand why aussie did not buy a big house, as he can easily afford that. But Lai know he is not there to comment about this. They did not talk much, as both of them know what they want. Soon they were busy kissing and stroking each other in the bed. Aussie is really a agreesive bottom, he moaned like a bitch in bed. For Lai, it is a big turn on, esp aussie is such a big guy. But on the other hand, Lai felt a little embarrassed, as aussie was so loud, Lai is afraid people might hear it, esp he noticed the window was open. Aussie seems did not mind it at all, he eagerly changed every possible position. "Damn, he definitely train his bum muscle as well", Lai think. Soon, both of them look like just get out of water.

After shower, aussie light up a cigarette, "Do you mind?" aussies asked ,"No, go on..." Lai does not smoke, but he think aussie looks really sexy when he was smoking. They chatted for a while, suddenly Lai asked aussie, "what kind of guy you would like to settle down with?"

"I want a wife in life, but a husband in bed" Aussie answered. Lai laughed so loud, "I do not know whether i can be a wife in life, but i definitely like to be the husband in bed." He pushed aussie down in the sofa, "Should we start Round two?"